Month: November 2020

A World of Battle Royale

The first battle Royale I ever played was Fortnite. Fortnite was a new kind of game for me. It was something I had never played before. Playing a shooter was nothing new. I’ve been playing shooters since Wolfenstein 3D. But Fortnite added a new element to the game: building.

Fortnite exploded. And I firmly believe it was because it was the first full cross-platform game. PC players could play with Xbox and Playstation players. And later they added Switch and mobile to the list. It was truly a game you can play with all your friends. And while it was fun at first, Fortnite had become stale and filled with try hards. Playing casually doesn’t exist anymore. Maybe I’m just bad at the game, but always being out-built makes me want to rage quit.

I spent some time on Warzone but it felt like there was too much going on. I’d always get killed super fast. I couldn’t kill anyone and my team always carried me. I don’t think I’ve ever won a game of Warzone either. But that’s ok. Warzone is the past.

Aside from Call of Duty: Black Ops Cold War, the only other game to really have my attention is Apex Legends. Apex is a game I dabbled in earlier on. I’d play a game here or there and then quit. It was fun, but I wanted to play other stuff. Recently that changed.

I’ve been all about Apex lately. I love the gameplay. I love the pace of the games. I love the choice of weapons and the legends to play as. Apex takes some getting used to, but once you figure out the mechanics. it’s super fun to play. It’s been the one game I’ve played the most in the last week or 2. I just can’t stop playing it.

I don’t win often, but when I do win, it feels like a major accomplishment. It feels like I earned a win. Fortnite wins don’t always feel earned. They are sometimes really easy to get. Apex is hard, but not impossible. And while I’m still learning about all the little aspects of the game, I’m sure I’ll be playing Apex for a long time to come.

Being a Content Creator

Being a content creator isn’t as easy as it seems. It takes a lot of time and effort. I create several forms of content. All of which are different. And all of which take hours upon hours to complete.

I have recently created a schedule for myself in order to manage my time better. While it seemed like I would follow it, after the first week, I forgot about it and stopped. It wasn’t my intention. I’m just not accustomed to following a schedule like that.

So I think it’s time I went and revisited it. I put things in there like edit video, write these blog posts, work on my movie, read books, the list goes on. There’s plenty of times I have editing marked down and no video to edit. So while I do specify times, it isn’t always set in stone. That’s just how it is.

It always seems like there’s a lot I want to do and I never seem to have time to do it. Even after managing my time. This is mainly because I find ways to distract myself. For example, this post was supposed to be out last Sunday, November 1. It’s a week late.

When I started creating content, I never intended to make money off it. I just did it because I discovered a long time ago that I have a creative brain. I need to do things that allow me to be creative. So I learned how to edit video on my own. It was ok, but then I took an actual video editing class. After that, my video editing excelled. I had a better understanding of it and what to look for.

Since then, I’ve edited videos for a few Twitch streamers. I’m not a perfect editor, but I do take pride in my work. Besides that, there’s no such thing as a perfect video editor. There’s always a mistake somewhere.

Currently, most of the video I edit is my own. It’s either for my gaming channel on YouTube or one of my other two channels. The other two channels I use to post video edits as well as projects I wrote and/or produced. I do a lot of it for the experience. The gaming videos I try to get more experimental with. Try new things. Everything else, I just do whatever flows.

Aside from video editing I also write and draw comics. I’m not the best artist, but I do what I can. I make up for it in storytelling…or at least I try to. I am proud of my comics even though they aren’t finished yet. One of them I may never finish simply because there’s so much story left to tell.

My biggest creative project is the movie I’m writing. While I can’t go into detail, I can say that it is something that I am very happy with so far. I love the story and I love how it’s playing out. It’s always a good sign when the story writes itself and flows naturally.

Having a creative mind is both a curse and a blessing. It’s a blessing because I can write things that I can share with other people. I can tell endless stories. I can share how I feel. But most importantly for me, it gives me a chance to be me. It gives me a chance to be anyone I want. As someone that never finished college, that means a lot.

There’s so many things I want to do. So many people I want to be. There just isn’t enough time in the world for it all. But to be able to create worlds and characters that can live out these other lives makes me feel happy. For example, I know I’ll never be a lawyer, but that doesn’t mean I can’t write a story about one. And in doing so, I would get to feel what it’s like to be a lawyer for a brief moment in time.

Being a content creator is hard. It’s far from easy. But you get out of it what you put into it. And after I write a story, I always feel happy. I feel accomplished. And that’s one of the best feelings in the world.